Monday, March 6, 2017

His Compassions They Fail Not

Exodus 34:5-6  "Then the Lord came down in the cloud and stood there with him and proclaimed his name, the Lord. And he passed in front of Moses, proclaiming, “The Lord, the Lord, the compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness."

2 Kings 13:23  "But the Lord was gracious to them and had compassion and showed concern for them because of his covenant with Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. To this day he has been unwilling to destroy them or banish them from his presence."

Matthew 9:36  "When he saw the crowds, he had compassion on them, because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd."

Luke 15:20  "So he got up and went to his father. “But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him."

Do you believe it yet?  That our Father is compassionate?  

Just prior to my Mom beginning her dying process my husband and I moved her into our home.  She could no longer be on her own and wanted to come and live with us.  I knew it was going to be a huge life change for us, especially me, as I was the one home with her 24-7, and also a major life change for my mom.  

We knew it was the Father's will that we three do this.  So I asked God, "please Lord, the only thing I ask of you is that your glory be revealed in this situation."  

Time, struggle, and failing health had their way and before too long I found myself feeling desperate.  My daughter Shannon came to offer respite one sunshiny day and I pointed my car south towards the shopping mall for some retail therapy.  

As I often do while driving, I turned on the praise music (LOUDLY) and cruised down the highway singing to the CD.  But this time it wasn't a happy, joyful noise that I was making.  It was a cry.  A desperate, angry at the Lord, cry. Yes, that's right.  Angry.  I shouted the words of the song that I was hearing emulate from the speakers.  All about his glory being revealed.  I said, "LORD, I said I would do what you asked and I did.  I only asked ONE THING of you!  Just ONE THING!  That your glory be revealed.  You tell me how your glory is being revealed.  I'm watching my mother fade farther away from us every day.  And more than that she is suffering!"  I asked just this ONE THING and you REFUSE to answer me!"  

Then, with the music still blasting and the car speeding at 70 miles and hour, a quiet stillness filled the air and for a short moment time stood still. And the Holy Spirit spoke to me. His words dispelled my anger and hurt. They divided the light from the darkness. They filled my soul with His refreshing peace. He spoke so quietly and so incredibly compassionately. He said, "David only asked one thing too." And instantly I recalled one of my favorite passages of scripture: "This one thing I have desired of the Lord...that will I seek after...That I may dwell in his house all the days of my life and behold his beauty."

If only I had trusted what I knew about our Father's nature and character. 

Then Jesus told him, "Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed." (John 20:29)

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