Tuesday, September 6, 2016

Keeping It Real

2 Corinthians 12:8-10 “But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."

There are people out there who view me as a spiritually strong, got-it-together, christian woman. I know that because many have told me so. Many years ago one person even went as far as to say, "oh, you're stronger than that" when I dared show my weakness one day.

That was a curve ball that really derailed my spiritual walk for a time. I felt angry that someone would expect me to be more than I could be. That was many years ago. Now I realize that both that person and myself have grown and neither of us are as spiritually immature as we were then. That person now knows better than to say that, and I know better than to let a comment like that affect me so severely.

Generally speaking, when we view someone as strong we don't like seeing their weaknesses. To see them less than what we want them to be can ruin things for us. We don't like it when the knight falls off his white horse.

We have a false idea of who people are many times. But isn't it better for everyone if we know we are all alike? The truth of the matter is we all struggle with pretty much the same issues. Thoughts, feelings, weariness, and "stuff".

I think there should definitely be a balance between "being real" and airing our "dirty laundry" in front of everyone. We can't always just "let it all hang out" with everyone. And on the other hand, we don't want to be a fake. We have to know the where the balance is.

As a leader I am at the front of the line a lot. Sometimes I struggle with feeling tired or weary and I don't feel like leading. And you know what? That's okay.

I am a soldier of God. Yes. I lead from the front line. Yes. But when a soldier gets wounded he may have to be taken to the back of the line to recover, get restored, and ready to battle another day. If he is wounded bad enough he may even have to visit the field hospital. And that's okay too.

We all have our strengths and we all have our weaknesses. We are all alike, give or take a few differences.

Someone once told me many years ago, "you're going to be okay Debbie. You're a rock". I decided right then and there that I didn't want to be a rock any more. I just want to be me. No pretenses. And let God deal with my sharp edges as he sees fit. In the meantime....

"He only is my Rock." Psalm 62:6

"For who is God, besides the LORD? And who is a rock, besides our God?"

2 Samuel 22:32

"Great is our Lord and abundant in strength" Psalm 147:5

And I am just me.

1 comment:

  1. One of the things that gives me much needed rest and encouragement on this journey is knowing fellow travelers that I look up to experience the same doldrums, doubts, weariness and weakness that I do. Yet they persevere, pray and press on and so can I. An ever-flawless never-failing, and therefore not really real, leader would keep me forever trapped in a false reality of never being able to make the grade. Ever.